Today is a mopey day for me. I met a guy and he is pretty fucken awesome. Sad thing he is sooo fucken hard to read. To make things worse I don't even know if I am gonna be around after the summer. I'm still waiting on branch to send me back to Germany. It annoys me that there is so much uncertainty in my life right now. I'm not used to it. There has always been an expiration date to anything that was going on in my life. I always knew how much longer I had in any one place. Now I am back stateside and I have no clue if I will be leaving come August or if I am staying here or if I don't leave to Germany am I gonna have to move again anyways but somewhere in the states instead? Ugh I do not like this
After looking for so long I found a photographer. FEMALE. Sadly I don't know what the hell she thought I wanted with her husband but that has fallen through. I swear if its not one thing its another. I'm not a bombshell or a supermodel but seriously just cause I look a certain way doesn't mean I want your husband. I'm so sick of bitches that think because I am pretty that I must be a home wrecking whore. Get some fucken confidence. I like attractive men. Bad asses with tattoos, just plain bad ass or sexy as fuck pretty boys. I am not interested in some hand me down red headed pudgy bunny. FUCK now I am pissy. Well whatever. Hope everyone has been ok. Kisses

Today is a mopey day for me. I met a guy and he is pretty fucken awesome. Sad thing he is sooo fucken hard to read. To make things worse I don't even know if I am gonna be around after the summer. I'm still waiting on branch to send me back to Germany. It annoys me that there is so much uncertainty in my life right now. I'm not used to it. There has always been an expiration date to anything that was going on in my life. I always knew how much longer I had in any one place. Now I am back stateside and I have no clue if I will be leaving come August or if I am staying here or if I don't leave to Germany am I gonna have to move again anyways but somewhere in the states instead? Ugh I do not like this
After looking for so long I found a photographer. FEMALE. Sadly I don't know what the hell she thought I wanted with her husband but that has fallen through. I swear if its not one thing its another. I'm not a bombshell or a supermodel but seriously just cause I look a certain way doesn't mean I want your husband. I'm so sick of bitches that think because I am pretty that I must be a home wrecking whore. Get some fucken confidence. I like attractive men. Bad asses with tattoos, just plain bad ass or sexy as fuck pretty boys. I am not interested in some hand me down red headed pudgy bunny. FUCK now I am pissy. Well whatever. Hope everyone has been ok. Kisses